Wednesday, April 26, 2017

I Am Enough

I have been debating about whether or not to write this post, but I decided that if I'm going to be real with you then I need to put it all out there. I've been struggling a lot lately with whether or not I'm I pretty enough? Smart enough? Am I a good enough mom? Wife? Sister? Daughter? Friend? Blogger?

Unfortunately a lot of these feelings have come up since I stopped working. Being a stay-at-home mom when your kids are at school, your husband is at work/traveling, and most of your friends are still working is hard. It's lonely. That's one of the reasons I started this blog. It's a way for me to still feel connected to something. When I write a blog post it's like I'm talking to a friend. I'm not as lonely. I enjoy it. But it's also hard because I don't necessarily feel like I can write a post if I don't have something "new" to share. Since there isn't much new going on in my life, that usually means new clothes, shoes, decor, etc. And that means I'm spending money. It's not like I'm spending my way into serious debt, but it's also not realistic to always be going out (or online) and buying things. And again, am I good enough at this where people actually want to read what I'm writing? Am I writing about things people actually care about? At this point my blog traffic isn't very high, but is it because people aren't interested in what I have to say or is it because I'm not good enough (again with not being good enough!) at marketing myself?

It's so hard not to compare myself to the other bloggers I follow. And at this point my followers pale in comparison to theirs. But it's not about them, it's about me. I need to stop comparing myself to them, but as women isn't that what we always do? We live in a society where we're constantly comparing ourselves to others. I even find myself comparing Sophia and Carter at times. But I shouldn't compare them. And I shouldn't be comparing myself to anyone. But how do you stop? I guess the first step, as with anything, is recognizing that it's happening, which I guess I'm doing now.

I am good enough at everything I do. Could I be better? Absolutely. But I only need to be better for myself, not for my blog audience (that would be you), however big or small, not for anyone. I am enough.

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